OH MY

Well….when I last blogged over at Mighty Oaks From Acorns Grow (the old blogger blog… which I love and revisit often),  I was still waiting for that next step- that new job, new sign from the universe.  I’ve since gotten it, and it’s not exactly great; but it is a step forward. I think.

The sign came in the form of a job offer (after applying and being overlooked by the likes of Home Depot and Menard’s etc.) from an old area Correspondence School.  I am now working in the registrar’s office at the American School (the original correspondence school for home Schoolers), accomplishing a hodge podge of tasks that don’t make much sense to me- but hey, not much really does make sense to me these days.  I can’t quite decide how I feel about the new job, but I can say this: it makes the student loan payments!  Goal number one. Also….it is a job.  So I can’t bark at that when so many people are still looking.

This is a good thing- right?  I’m having a bit of a midlife crisis and I’m trying to be positive- but being positive has never been my thing so I’m thinking “Why start now?”  Eh, we’ll see.  I do have fleeting moments of positivity but usually my hormones jump in and bury them.  Hormones are angry, angry bitches.  That is for sure.

But, I hope to come through the other side of this period in my life a stronger and happier person.  One who can at least try to live in the moment and enjoy the little things.  It seems so stinking easy when you put it like that, doesn’t it?

Anyway, back to now:  I work full time in an office, and I’m not sure how I feel about that.  Monday-Friday.  Benefits.  Interesting co-workers. It is challenging for now, and somewhat interesting- but the biggest drawback is being indoors all day.  I am having a really hard time with that!  My work atmosphere gives “suck lights” a whole new meaning.  It is a sad, sad looking office.  I do what I can (flowers, photos, calendars etc.) but it is seriously lacking in natural light.

And I’m finding it difficult to manage my time.  When I did not have the 8-4 I would get quite a bit of stuff done in a day (even though I never felt like I was).  But now I look back and see how impossible it is to get all of that done while working outside the home 8 hours a day.  Weekends are gone in the blink of an eye.  It’s pretty awful, and I understand why people are so unhappy.

The trick of it for me is the time-management part and deciding which things are the important things to do when I’m home.  Do I do housework?  NO>>>>  Do I work on my many creative endeavors?  NO>>>>  Do I visit with family/friends?  No>>>>  You can usually find me tending to the very important work of sitting on my ASS whilst watching le’ Netflix.  And I’ve got to SNAP OUT OF IT!

Other news: Tim begins his new fancy job as ……. next Monday.  No more Advocate.  No more commute.  He’ll be working from home, and he is happy and excited.  I hope that it works out for him.  I’ll be leaving for work in the AM and he’ll be staying home.  Quite the turn of events.  I have no idea how this is going to pan out and it is exciting and scary.  He left a solid job for a not-so-solid job….at 52.  It is a gamble.  But hey….I’ve got my $20,000 a year job in a life-sucking office- so….

Yeah, I guess I sound a little bitter, don’t I?  That is one of my concerns going forward.  Tim and I will be switching roles completely.  He’ll be staying home to work the job he loves, and I’ll be heading out to a job I don’t particularly love.  Gonna be interesting.

Fasten your seat belts.